His grace falls heavily into my lap and

I didn’t ask for this it just happened

and I heard Him call my name

so I just closed my eyes and prayed

and I heard this:

You’re a sinner but I love you

You’re dirty but I’ll clean you

Don’t look elsewhere anymore

It’s me, love, at the door.

so at the corner of heartache and darkness

how I experienced this light, I can’t explain it

but it was as refreshing as sweet water

it was like taking a hot shower

and putting on a newly ironed and pressed clean robe

which I’m sure he specifically chose

and hand picked for me.

now that’s a good feeling.

and whats not a good feeling is getting dirty again

and waking up in the morning with a list of regrets

feeling shitty and ashamed

replaying scenes in my head that drive me insane

but there He is again time after time

saying I forgive you and you’re mine.