His grace falls heavily into my lap and
I didn’t ask for this it just happened
and I heard Him call my name
so I just closed my eyes and prayed
and I heard this:
You’re a sinner but I love you
You’re dirty but I’ll clean you
Don’t look elsewhere anymore
It’s me, love, at the door.
so at the corner of heartache and darkness
how I experienced this light, I can’t explain it
but it was as refreshing as sweet water
it was like taking a hot shower
and putting on a newly ironed and pressed clean robe
which I’m sure he specifically chose
and hand picked for me.
now that’s a good feeling.
and whats not a good feeling is getting dirty again
and waking up in the morning with a list of regrets
feeling shitty and ashamed
replaying scenes in my head that drive me insane
but there He is again time after time
saying I forgive you and you’re mine.